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Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Back of the Pack

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Warning: This post may contain some negative thoughts.

Last night was my usual Monday night run with the running club. I debated running to the starting place and then running home, but took so long deciding that I ran out of time and had to drive.

I looked around for the women I've run with previously but none of the other slowpokes where there. I wasn't really feeling like a run so I didn't know if I'd have the drive to keep up with the speedier ladies.

We started out fast, like always. I just don't understand this desire to run so fast right out of the gate. It's not a race.

I fell behind very quickly. But, I had to keep everyone in my sights since I still don't really know the route all that well. So, although I was at the very back and almost half a block behind everyone else, I had to keep running my little heart out. When my Garmin beeped at the one mile mark I was shocked to see that I'd just done that first mile in 8:30 (not including pauses for traffic). And I was STILL at the very back of the pack. I managed to keep up that pace for another mile. But I was starting to get very discouraged. Everyone was so far ahead of me. I didn't know the route very well. I was angry that no one was nice enough to slow down and run with me. I hated that they didn't even notice I was back there. I hadn't brought my iPhone (cause I thought I'd be running with a group!) so I didn't even have my map or a way to call Jason if I got lost.

And then I started having that same breathing problem I encountered on some of my long runs and at my last half marathon. My chest just closed up. I started wheezing. I couldn't get a deep breath and I started to tear up. So, I walked. I walked for what felt like forever. I was getting further and further behind the group until I couldn't even see them anymore. Thankfully I knew where I was at this point. But I was still so angry. I envisioned telling everyone off. I thought about just walking the rest of the way but figured if I ran I'd get done faster. So, I started running again.

When I got within sight of the park where we stop for water, I saw almost everyone else in the group take off for the rest of the run. When I finally made it to the water fountains only three people were still standing there. One of them was another woman my age. I had noticed her up ahead of me but she had been falling further and further behind the group. We chatted for a minute by the fountains and discovered that we both prefer to run a little bit slower. So, we ran back to the finish together.

I'm just so angry at the group right now. I mean, look at how they advertise themselves on the website:

Join the Oak Park Runners Club (OPRC). No prior running experience required. The club is one of the oldest and most active runners' organizations in the Chicago area. Our members are a diverse group: young and not so young, fast and not so fast, recreational runners and competitive racers, joggers and marathoners.


and

Monday Night Fun Runs
Open to all comers, the club's Monday night fun run begins at 6:30 p.m. from The Competitive Foot Store


Yet, last week when I was able to chat with the club secretary, she said that when people contact her with questions she tried to convey that if you're slower than 10 minutes per mile that you might not like running with the group. Make up your minds, people! Are you going to encourage everyone to join or are you going to scare off the slow people? These runs are supposed to be fun.

And what really makes me angry is when the faster runners, in an effort to be encouraging, laugh off your comments about being slower than them. Last night one of the fastest runners introduced himself to the woman I'd finished with. This is how the exchange went:

Woman: Oh, yeah, I didn't get a chance to talk to you during the run. You're one of those speedy people all the way up front.
Man: Oh, no, this was a slow night for me!
Me: Hahahahah
Man: What?
Me: Your slow miles equal the fastest mile I've ever run in my life
Man: Oh, I doubt that!

No, really. It's true. And I hate when people don't acknowledge that. I don't care if you're faster than me. I just want you to realize that not everyone is the same speed.

So, yeah, I'm a little discouraged. If I want to run on my own, I don't need to pay $15 and show up at the same place every Monday night. I joined the group because I want to run with the group. I suppose there are other reasons to join the group. Volunteering at races. Going to the monthly meetings (the first one of the fall season is tonight. Our speaker is the race director for the Chicago Marathon). Attending the holiday party. But it just makes it hard to like these people when they leave me in the dust and don't look back.

On the plus side, if you subtract the time I had to wait at intersections but still include the time I spent walking, this is the fastest run I've done with the running group. Too bad I was still at the back of the back of the pack.

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Stats

Garmin
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Bones in Motion

Activity
Route:--Elev. Avg:628 ft
Location:--Elev. Gain:+0 ft
Date:08/31/09Up/Downhill: [+19/-19]
Time:06:36 PMDifficulty:2.0 / 5.0
Performance

Distance: 5.39 miles
Time:0:49:56
Speed:6.5 mph
Pace:9' 16 /mi
Calories:633
Map
 
Elevation (ft)
 
Pace (min/mile)
 
Splits
MilePace (min/mile)Speed (mph)Elevation
Gain
actual+/- avgactual+/- avg
19' 07-0' 096.6+0.1-3 ft
28' 42-0' 346.9+0.4-6 ft
310' 18+1' 025.8-0.7+6 ft
49' 15-0' 016.5+0.0+3 ft
510' 49+1' 335.5-0.90 ft
end9' 24+0' 086.4-0.1+3 ft
Versus average of 9' 16 min/mile

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10 comments:

Anonymous said...

Well, if the commute wasn't so bad, I would volunteer to run with you, but I am sure that I run extremely slow at this point in my life. Not like the old army days when I was at the back of the pack typlically too, but meeting the requirements (barely).

I wish you good luck at having people in your timeframe attending the runs. I do know that it is easy to run with someone else to encourage you, and to have mutual motivation to continue the effort.

Take Care!

Patrick Twigg

kilax said...

How discouraging! I would feel the same way. It's not good to run with a group like that if that is not your pace and no one is accounting for you. Where was the group leader? I would hope a great run would be around the 9:30 range. Not everyone is a speed demon!

I met the Chicago Marathon Director last week at the fun run (no one ran with me either, and I also didn't have my headphones :( ), he seems nice. I hope you have fun there at least!

Running Through Life said...

That is certainly discouraging. I think it sounds like a bunch of running snobs you may have joined.

Sorry to hear about that.

RunningLaur said...

I would have definitely been upset too - it's so frustrating when a fun run is anything but fun. People's over-competitiveness is a huge pet peeve of mine and you have every right to be angry about it. Either be all inclusive and fun or don't - there's no gray area in between. (Rant done!)

Tim Fitz said...

I would have also been upset. When you run with people you intend to run with them. Hard to do when people don't wait for (even when you run at a good pace).

aimeegomeow said...

That really is discouraging. My running club is sort of like that, but there are usually a handful of walkers and one woman that runs slower than me. I really hate when people say it's "okay" to run a 10 min/mile and an 8 is just "good". GTFO, thanks.

Maybe bring some friends that run at your pace?

Bayjb said...

Don't get discouraged it'll be okay! you're doing great.

Lacey Nicole said...

NOT WORTH IT! here is my advice: you don't need to pay $$ to find a way better fit running group. i think they are everywhere. you need to find a group you will be happy with. don't settle for less!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kimodified said...

That would be incredibly discouraging to me - as a newer runner with little, short legs, I'm barely *racing* at under 10 minute miles! Maybe you can suggest they either become what they claim OR change what they say about themselves ... or run in oder to be the one there who is considerate of the slower runners ...

Dragonslayer said...

Wow. Just wow. My biggest fear about running groups realized. Next time someone asks why I don't join a running group, I'll point them at this post.

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